I need a Saviour!

I was going to write about Carnaval and how terrible it is but I changed my mind. What is actually in my heart right now is that I need a Saviour. Well, it is not really a discovery, I have known that for more than 20 years now, but, oh how easily I forget! I have been struggling with my lovely girl, trying to teach her how to obey. We have had ups and downs (it does feel that we have more downs than ups though!!) and when I am sleep deprived and tired it is so much harder to put up with disobedience. Well, it is exactly then when I find it really hard to obey God as well. I know that God wants me to correct my child with a gracious heart, with the right motives, with his glory in my mind; but what I actually do is get really upset if my girl doesn't obey me because her disobedience is getting in my way of what I really want. I want her to come straight to the table at dinner time because I WANT to have a peaceful dinner; I want her to put away her shoes because I WANT to do other things rather than putting away her shoes; I want her to go to sleep because I WANT to rest. You get the idea. None of these desires are bad in themselves. There is nothing wrong with wanting a peaceful dinner and a restful night. But my problem is that I want it too much! And I let my desires govern the way I teach my lovely daughter. I am a wretched sinner, I am a selfish woman and I desperately need a Saviour! I pray to my God that this evening, and tonight (even the middle of the night!) I will remember that I need grace and forgiveness as much as my daughter does, that I can't obey God as I should and neither can she, and that the only person in the whole world who is able to actually obey is Jesus! Praise be to God for reminding me how much I need Jesus.